Acheiving What I Want
As I sit here this morning and look at the views on my website, I am overwhelmed with gratitude and emotion. The people who have taken their time to show support for me and believe in what I am doing, means the world to me! As I try and launch this business idea of mine, I am still working a full time job. Trying to balance both of these and commit to everything I have going, has been a bit of a challenge. I get discouraged some days because I don’t get to devote the time I would like to each thing. This morning was a reminder to enjoy the small victories and continue pushing forward in what I hope to acheive.
Someone asked me a question once that has stuck with me since. I was probably in my early thirties and the question posed was this, “What are your goals? Where do you see yourself in the next five years?” For a lot of people, this is an easy answer, but for me at the time, it was the hardest question someone had ever asked me. Hell, I didn’t know what my goals were for the next 5 minutes, let alone the next five years! No one ever taught me what it was to set goals and honestly, even if they had, I had more important things to focus on most days. I have come to realize that I couldn’t be bothered to set goals because my only goal every day was just to survive. Fight or flight some call it. My brain lived in a constant state of fight or flight for so many years. Once I started to understand how my brain was processing things differently than other people who were, what I considered successful in life, I started to analyze how I could make this different.
So, that one simple question led me down a rabbit hole of healing! What were my goals? Where did I see my self in the next five years? If you know me, you know that I like to tackle things head on and I see the big picture! The big picture is always a good place for me to start, but I quickly realized that if I was gonna do this, I needed to be a lot more realistic. By that, I mean, I had to break it down into managable goals. That seemed an easy task. Boy, was I wrong! In life there are all sorts of goals we can set ourselves. It just depends on our focus. At the time, I decided the biggest thing holding me back was my emotional immaturity. I didn’t know where to even begin trying to get my shit together! I just knew that if I didn’t start growing in myself and my healing, one day someone would ask me where I saw myself in 5 years and I would still have the same answer for them. I didn’t want that to be the case, so, one step at a time here I came!
It truly has been one step at a time. If you had told my 30 year old self that she would be starting her own business to help people learn to achieve what they wanted emotionally and out of life, she would have laughed at you! I didn’t have the self confidence or tools back then to know that this would indeed be a goal that I had set and acheived. Becoming who I am today, has been a journey that has taught me so many things about setting goals and having the confidence in who I am to acheive said goals. Rising above…Bettering me.. healing my inner child..these were a few of my very first goals. As time has gone on and I am more comfortable in myself and my abilities, I have started to acheive bigger and bigger goals. I truly wish I had known how much healing would help me to find my true self and I try and reach others to help them do the same!
The next step in this goal is to enjoy the small things and the victories that come with those goals. Each time I feel that I am doing less than I should or can, I will come back to this blog to remind myself how far I have already come. How this was a day that I felt seen and heard by you! Thank you each for walking this journey with me! Thank you for taking your time to support me by viewing my website and reading my blog. Thank you for your patience in my rambling! But most of all, THANK YOU for helping me to appreciate the small things and all that I have truly achieved! Remember today to enjoy the small steps you take towards your goals, whatever they may be! Share your joy with someone who will be just as excited as you are! Celebrate you!